The doctor said that I had been on the OCD for five years
Today, I have the record on this reservation registration form: Wen Jing, female, 20 years old, junior.
He has been suffering from obsessive-compulsive disorder for five years, and has had great problems in interpersonal communication. He has recently been reluctant to go to school and often conflicts with his father, who also causes obsessive-compulsive disorder.
As soon as I entered the meeting room, Wen Jing immediately stood up and greeted, “I have been looking forward to meeting you. I really want to communicate with you.
“The first impression Wen Jing gave me was: beautiful, educated, and good at communication. I foresee that this will be a relatively smooth exchange, but I don’t want this exchange to cause me deep thinking and it will be unforgettable.
After sitting down, Wen Jing started what she called.
My parents are ordinary workers. Although they do n’t have much culture, they are very strict with my tutoring. I grew up under strict constraints.
Father’s military precision equipment installation, the unit stipulated that if the parts are lost, personal compensation is required, which should be acknowledged to the father who has a very low income, so he trembled at work every day, for fear of losing parts.
In my sixth grade, my father was diagnosed with obsessive-compulsive disorder.
At that time, the atmosphere in the home was particularly depressed, and his father’s personality changed a lot.
This atmosphere affected my studies. When Xiaosheng started, I only entered an ordinary junior high school.
Junior high school is the best three years of my life, with excellent grades and active participation in various school activities. Teachers and classmates like me very much. I also became the vice chairman of the student union.
Those days were busy and fulfilling. I truly experienced that fate was in my hands. I firmly believed that I could make life more exciting . After I was admitted to a key high school, I was determined to maintain a good state of junior high school for three years.Lead the success of the college entrance examination.
The smoothness of Wen Jing’s thoughts, the accuracy of her language, and her gaze led me to be full of doubts about the “five years with OCD” on the appointment registration, but I did not interrupt her talk and encouraged her to continue speaking.
At that time, I was exposed to Carnegie’s successful psychology. At that time, I thought that the psychologist was the most learned and trusted person in the world.
They listen to people’s distress, discover and help correct the problems that people have in their hearts, and they can also discover people’s potential, and they can turn a stone into gold . In my mind, the psychiatrist is simply too lofty and amazing!
Listening to Wen Jing’s over description of the psychologist made me feel uneasy, and even had an ominous hunch . In high school, the teacher appointed me as the monitor. I was happy at the time and felt that I had achieved my “plan”.
As a monitor, I have to deal with classmates and deal with the relationship between teachers and classmates, classmates and classmates. I also understand some contradictions that ordinary students are hard to know . I originally thought that people should trust each other, butWhat I realized was not the case at all, and it led to suffering.
I don’t know if I am wrong or if there is something wrong with the people around me?
I discussed with my classmates, but most of them simply said that they didn’t think about it.
I was more nervous and worried that I had a psychological problem. At that time, I had a strong desire in my heart, hoping to fully understand the problem.
Wen Jing at the junior high school stage is often affirmed by the teacher, life is full of joy, and change the path that the teacher has indicated to go down and gain a sense of accomplishment.
After entering high school, through the enhancement of sense of adulthood and self-awareness, she reexamined herself while also examining her surroundings with critical eyes.
Because a perfect self-evaluation system has not yet been established, the limitations of cognitive development and the lack of life experience, it is normal to be filled with contradictions and conflicts.
As a monitor, Wen Jing faced the differences between the new environment and the old environment, the conflict of personal and crowd interests, the same time when classmates and teachers set certain standards on her, and so on.
She is a child with a lot of introspection, and this certainly reinforces her conflict and conflict.
I firmly believe that the psychiatrist is the only person who can help me, so I strongly urge my mother to take me to try and tell her that as long as I solve this problem, I will learn better.
I still remember how excited I was that morning when I saw the psychologist. I firmly believe that when I return from the psychiatrist, everything will be smooth and I will have more bright futures.
However, my first impression from the psychologist was: quite disappointed!
He wasn’t as gentle as he wrote in the book, or asked me coldly: “Why are you here?
“I was a little bit cold at the time, and replied,” My mind is very chaotic. I always think about many things. I hope to talk to you and get your advice.
The second sentence of the psychologist is: “Does your family have a history of mental illness?”
“I was a little bit blind at the time, as if stung by a wasp:” My dad has obsessive-compulsive disorder.
As soon as the words came out, I was particularly nervous, as if I felt something in advance. The doctor gave me a cold look, and slowly said, “You are obsessive-compulsive consciousness, a type of obsessive-compulsive disorder. Take some medicine first, it will relieve someof.
“I was caught at the time, I was obsessive-compulsive!
I walked out of the consulting room unconsciously and mechanically said to my mother, “I am obsessive-compulsive disorder.
“How I wish my mother told me this was not true, but my mother said with tears:” I was worried that you followed him, it really is like that, life!
“She went prescribingly.
Wen Jing said it was a little cold and put on her coat.My heart twitched a bit, and I really realized the helplessness of a girl full of longing for life.
”So how did you come over the years?
What have you experienced
What is your feeling?
“Wen Jing burst into tears:” For the first time in five years, someone asked me this way and cared about my feelings . I always wanted someone to calm down and listen to my heart, but no, including my parents, they thoughtAll I say is crazy.
“I want to study hard and try to change my destiny and create a better life for my parents. But after coming out of the psychologist, I know that I have no qualifications and ability.
I was looking for a psychiatrist to be able to recover better. I didn’t expect to become a patient who needs medicine to maintain my condition.
I obeyed my mother’s arrangement and insisted on taking medication, although the other was very large.
But inside, I haven’t thought I was sick.
Later, my mother took me to several other hospitals. Some doctors said that I was not obsessive-compulsive disorder, but it didn’t help me.
Later, I bought a book on psychotherapy and learned that inheritance is indeed an important factor in mental illness. I no longer struggled and realized that I was sick.
At that time, how much I needed someone to understand my feelings and tell me how to do it without thinking and continue to learn . Wen Jing couldn’t control her emotions, covered her face and started crying. I didn’t disturb her, and quietly put her hands on her.On her shoulder, the other hand patted her shoulder gently.
Dad often sighed . After he got sick, he stopped working, and lived on his mother’s meager income, hoping that I could give him an old age.
When I was diagnosed with a disease, his attitude towards me changed a lot, saying that I was a “death star” . At that time I believed that my classmates said that adults are selfish and always in their interestsFor the center, if the child meets their wishes, they love the child, and once they find that the child cannot fulfill their wishes, they will become cold . I started to fight with my parents, I could n’t stand it outside the house, my bad moodThere must be an exit for release.
Otherwise I’m really going crazy.
”Wen Jing, in this state, have you always been studying?
“I couldn’t help asking.
I am determined to learn as long as I can control my behavior.
I insist on classes, sometimes because of the substitution of drugs, my brain reacts very slowly, and I can’t keep up with the teacher’s ideas, but I always insist, but my grades have dropped from the top ten in the class to the bottom ten.
”In this state, you can still be admitted to the university to show that you have superman control. I admire you very much!
In the past few years, what is your relationship with the people around you?
What did you mean by enduring outside the home?
Wen Jing paused, wrapped her jacket tightly, and I put her coat on, too. She stuck her face to my clothes, took a deep breath, and slowly went down.
After seeing a psychologist, I resigned from the position of monitor, and I believe that I do not have this qualification and ability.
I lament the misery of my fate, and at the same time I am jealous of the health of everyone around me.
I’m like a virus carrier, always reminding myself that you can’t interact with people on an equal basis.
It’s best to walk away before others disapprove of me.
I feel that my language skills are deteriorating, and it is difficult for people to understand what I say. I am not a normal person, just shut up.
The classmates thought I was weird. Slowly, I had no friends and lived in my own world.
It is appropriate to say that the high school stage is okay, and having the college entrance examination as a life goal, I don’t care if I can communicate with everyone.
I have really known depression since I went to college.
My interpersonal skills are too poor. What’s the point of living like this?
The classmates around me are in love, and some boys have expressed favor to me, but I know that I am not qualified to have children, and my obsessive-compulsive disorder will be passed on to the children.
Since you can’t have children, you can’t marry in love.
Therefore, when the boy showed me his favor, I would reject it incoherently.
So, I may really be alone forever.
My hand held Wen Jing tightly and refused word by word: “Wen Jing, if I tell you, you are not OCD, do you believe it?
“Thank you, I believe you will give me good comfort and guidance, but you said that I am not sick, I do not believe it.
The doctor has given me a diagnosis, and I know that I am sick, and I can accept this fate.”I drew to the psychiatrist Yue Xiaodong the concept map of the” grey area “of psychological counseling and told her that this theory uses the colors of white, light gray, dark gray, and black to represent people’s different mental states.
White people have a healthy personality, a high degree of self-confidence and a strong adaptability; light gray people are psychological conflicts caused by normal people due to various life pressures, and need help from psychological counselors or social workers;Various abnormal personality and personality abnormalities and obstacles are dark gray populations, which need to be treated by a psychologist through a clinical psychology model; black populations are schizophrenic patients and are treated by a psychiatrist through a medical model.
Counselors, psychologists and psychiatrists each perform their duties and serve the people they should serve.
Everyone should have a preliminary definition of themselves when receiving services and choose a rescuer that suits them.
When you find a psychologist, he assumes that you have confirmed that you are symptomatic, and your father’s obsessive-compulsive disorder undoubtedly provides strong evidence for his diagnosis.
”Why can’t he listen to me seriously?
Why did you prescribe me immediately?
Why don’t you test it scientifically?
It hit me so hard, it brought me an amazing disaster!
“Wen Jing’s face turned red.
I poured her a glass of water to calm her down slowly.
”Child, you have been struggling for the past five years, and I feel heartache.
You can go to today and pay what others cannot imagine and bear.
I can also understand your current mood. I hope to overthrow the original diagnosis, and it is difficult to bear the painful price I once paid.
But we cannot live in the past. Today we are responsible for ourselves tomorrow.
do you think so?
“Do you mean that my five-year shame has been written off?
“Not” is not write-off, you have obtained a huge wealth of life.
When you first came into contact with successful psychology, you were still young. You blindly deified the psychologist, took the initiative to give up your judgment, and accepted all the cues from the psychologist.
In fact, any occupation in the society is only a means of earning a living, and it is by no means a symbol of noble personality.
“Wen Jing nodded thoughtfully,” I overestimated him, didn’t he intentionally hurt me?
In the future, when you encounter people around you in a state of pain and helplessness, you will understand them well, give them equality and care, and these two will spread love to the surroundings and also create your affinity.
Based on this, you are qualified to be a mother, and you can know when your child needs the support and care from parents.
“” You mean I can fall in love?
“Yeah, people who have experienced pain know more about the meaning of love.”
Wen Jing smiled shyly, her smile was really beautiful.
”Wen Jing, the first time I saw you, I was always illuminated by the fire of your life.
Five years of hard work have not made you decadent, and you still have a god in your eyes. I believe that you will be stronger in the face of future difficulties and setbacks!
“I would like to share my experience with more people, and I hope to use my own experience to awaken everyone’s respect for life, whether it is a helpless and painful child or an adult around them.
“” I will support you!
“Wen Jing was hugging me tightly before leaving, leaving with joy.
Email me a week later: Teacher Li Shan: Hello!
”Child, how have you been here over the years?
What have you experienced
What is your feeling?
“After hearing such words, I was really touched. At that moment, what had been in my mind for five years suddenly found an outlet for release.
Makes me feel that my pain is not my shame-it is too important to me!
These five years of painful struggle are no longer unseen experiences!
My heart knot opened . “Wake up people’s respect for life”, I engraved this sentence in my heart, always reviewing myself.
Psychological counselors provide services to the human mind and are responsible for the quality of life.
Nowadays, there are still many people who do not want to “spend money for psychological counseling”, and if they take medicine, they think it is “worth it”.
In this case, how can the doctor calmly listen to the visitor?
The value of the career of a psychological counselor is that the visitor realizes that with the company of others, he says goodbye to the pain and keeps growing.
The formation of modern consumption concepts has gradually changed the status quo.
As a psychological counselor, if you can concentrate on accompanying the visitor and give them effective support and help, you must constantly clarify yourself, constantly find the pain points of your own mind, and heal them in time and effectively, otherwiseThoroughly shoot yourself at the visitor, affect each other’s consultation, and cause harm to both parties.
This visitor’s confession made me re-understand my work—each counselor’s influence on the visitor was profound.
”Wake people’s respect for life”, also said to parents who are facing growing children, to carefully observe the children’s psychological changes, to give children the support and encouragement they need most, not to let them realize the despair andhelpless.